Tomorrow.
Tomorrow I will be painting without having to go to my part-time job, and I've been looking forward to it all week! Don't get me wrong, I actually really enjoy and am thankful for my part-time job. The people have been great, I've been learning a lot so my brain has been happy, and I have yet another reason to change out of my yoga/sweatpants. That's all very good and well.
However...
I love the days when I can paint as long as I want without having to look at the clock, and absolutely surrendering to the now. What a gift!
When I was unemployed, I couldn't quite enjoy creating as much as one would imagine. Instead, I was constantly stressed, somewhat depressed, and existing with a touch of anxiety at all times no matter what I was doing. Today, I'm grateful for what I have gained due to finding work again. Yes, I am losing time to create, but it's making the time that I am able to create so much better and more productive. Someday, I hope that I can make art my full time occupation that pays the bills, but the meantime isn't so bad. I am happy to say that for now, I am satisfied in a stable, balanced manner, and I haven't been able to say that for a long time.
The last few years have been a stuggle for so many of us. I hope that you are finding out what you need and recieving the change to recieve it. Love to all of you!
Tomorrow I will be painting without having to go to my part-time job, and I've been looking forward to it all week! Don't get me wrong, I actually really enjoy and am thankful for my part-time job. The people have been great, I've been learning a lot so my brain has been happy, and I have yet another reason to change out of my yoga/sweatpants. That's all very good and well.
However...
I love the days when I can paint as long as I want without having to look at the clock, and absolutely surrendering to the now. What a gift!
When I was unemployed, I couldn't quite enjoy creating as much as one would imagine. Instead, I was constantly stressed, somewhat depressed, and existing with a touch of anxiety at all times no matter what I was doing. Today, I'm grateful for what I have gained due to finding work again. Yes, I am losing time to create, but it's making the time that I am able to create so much better and more productive. Someday, I hope that I can make art my full time occupation that pays the bills, but the meantime isn't so bad. I am happy to say that for now, I am satisfied in a stable, balanced manner, and I haven't been able to say that for a long time.
The last few years have been a stuggle for so many of us. I hope that you are finding out what you need and recieving the change to recieve it. Love to all of you!
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